Rudy Yuan’s Streak oF BluE

uwaaaa, ga tau nih. gw udah posting dua blog dlm waktu yg berdekatan, bener2 pertanda buruk. artinya gw lg bener2 ga tau apa yg ada dlm otak gw. pengen bener mengerjakan sesuatu, spt tugas (pliiiis, masih ada puluhan transistor blm di layout!!), ato proposal, ato ta, ato apapun laaaah. tapi ke mana niaat itu?? give me back my motivation. bener2 rasanya dah jenuh kul nih. tgl 2 semester, tp rasanya dah pengen keluar aja. tp kalo mikir soal kerja, bener2 males juga. pengalaman buruk kp di…. ups, no name mentioned. ga bole maen merk. hahah

so, time shows 01:04 am. i’m really sleepy right now, with all the sore muscles gara2 nge gym. but i feel like i’m not gonna be able to sleep.

talk about what ya? td gw teringat my first times. my first times of many things. hal2 bodo yg gw lakuin pada berbagai first time gw. pas ngingat tadi, ntah napa gw ngerasa pengen bunuh diri gara2 betapa bodonya i must look like then. hahah. maluuuu de.

first time naek motor. FYUH! kejadiannya kelas 1 smu. gw ga dibolehin naek motor (kalo di siantar sebutan motor itu Honda atau kereta. maen merk getho de) sama bonyok. bokap takut gw jadi pembalap. hahahah, very unrealistic utk org spt gw yah?! suatu hari, gw diundang ke b’day party seorg tmn. cewe gw blm dateng. yoooi, no comment on this! loL. gw ga bawa mobil (saat itu malah dibolehin pake mobil looh), soalnya dibonceng tmn gw. trus yg ultah desak gw jemputin cewe gw, masa ditinggal di rumah, katanya. yaaa, akhirnya somebody (ntah sapa lah) minjemin motornya ke gw. well, i knew the basics, but i never really tried. begitulah gw mencoba naek motor, ditemenin tmn gw (CEWE! sial banget ga sih harga diri gw. hahah. untungnya ga terlalu kenal!). tau lah, first timer. motornya serasa berat n pasti jalannya mencong2. fyuh, bener2 breathtaking lah saat itu. ntah gimana akhirnya berhasil menjemput yayang (rumahnya jauh banget!), tapi pulangnya gw ga berani lagi. hahahah. tapi satu hal yg teringat: gw saking begonya ga sempat menghindar lubang jalan gitu. karna digenangin air, begitu nyadar masuk lubang, gw rem. Remnya kekencengan. Akhirnya yayang terdorong ke dpn. anda tau kan apa yg terjadi setelah itu? sengatan listrik di punggung! hahahahah. duh, ntah napa itu berkesan banget waktu itu. baru jadian ga lama soalny. LOl.

first time ke bali. hm, harusnya the only time to bali. kejadiannya kapan yah. sekitar kls 3 smu lah. ga terlalu berkesan, soalnya jj bareng anak2 yg ga terlalu kenal. tapi satu yg unforgettable. kejadiannya di kuta, maen2 di laut gitu. dah tau tulisannya “no swimming”, tetep aja gw ga tahan pengen maenin ombak. biasalah, ego seorg perenang (wahahah, renangnya msh amatiran jg!). sblmnya blom pernah maen di lautan yg ombaknya gede. akhirnya terseret ombak. pdhal pada sapuan ombak sblmnya gw masih ngerasa menginjak dasar, tp setelahnya kaki gw kehilangan pijakan. gw liat ke depan, buseeeet, pantainya dah jauh gitu. langsung donk gw phaniiik. langsung gaya bebas, mksd hati biar cepat nyampenya. begonya gw gayanya tidak cocok digunakan saat berombak. susyah napaaas. stlah bego bbrapa saat, gw ganti gaya: gaya dada: least power, easiest breath intake. duh, bener2 powerless. ombaknya bener2 kencang n gw bknnya mendekat ke pantai, tp makin jauh. saat itu dah panik bener. dah mikir yg ngga2 aja nih. “duh, ntar sapa yg nyadar duluan ya kalo gw ‘mati’ di laut”. LoL. semacam2 itu lah. tapi gw ga jadi mati dooonk. ada surfer gitu yg dateng, out of nowhere. dia nanya (pake inggris lagi!) “r u alright? u can’t swim here”. sial, gw dah choking air laut gitu. gw dah mau bilang ‘help me’, cuman harga diriiii. hahahaha. shit! untung dia ngerti: ‘let me take you to the beach’. gw ga ingat gmn dia akhirnya berhasil narikin gw ke pantai. fyuuuuh, almost died! kalo gw teringat kejadian itu, kadang2 gw merinding. kalo ga ada si surfer itu, gw dah nyampe australia kali ya. hahahah. bego, bukan itu lah. pasti gw dah mati. kan blm sempat tobat!

first time jatuh cinta. wahahahaha. udah lama bangeeet! ada satu cewe yg suka nelpon gw gituuu. ga pernah ketemu, soalnya dia tinggal di luar kota, sejam gt dr siantar. kejadian taun kapan yaaa. masih ingusan laaah. awalnya sih gw kesal banget, soalnya hampir tiap ari nelpon, ngobrol basa basi. i hate talking through phone with someone i dont know well. suatu saat, dia harus ke luar negri, akhirnya hubungan terputus. awalnya gw seneng banget, bisa lepas jugaaaa. tapi ntah napa stlh bbrapa hari, gw rindu donk sama dia. hahaha, foolish bener. walaupun hanya sebatas rindu, gw rasa itu pertama kali ada yg menyentuh hati gw. loL. untung gw bukan org yg sentimentil. i wonder dia skrg ada di mana ya….? hehehe.

ugh, udahan ah. udah jam 01:37. ngantuuk. ntar kalo teringat kejadian bego, gw tulis de. besok ada janji sama si R mau ke kotkem. skalian mau beli Lake House. dah nonton?? baguuuussssss. menyentuh. hehe. daaaah!

YupS! Eureka is the shoutout Archimedes made when he discovered the way to figure out whether the crown of his king was truly wholly purely gold or not. it’s the hydro something we learn in hi-school. You know, the theory says something about the volume of the liquid removed is proportional to the mass submerged into it. or is it something else?? hahaha. the hell with physics.

i’m not talking about a shoutout. i’m talking about the new film series i’ve just laid my hand upon several days ago. (or is it just two days ago??). well, it’s called eureka. gosh, it seems like i really have nothing to do for me to write a blog about this!

so, let’s switch to friendlier language. dah nonton eureka?? well, emang sih ga sebagus prison break atau supernatural, atau 24, atau dh. filmnya aneh! tp layak ditonton kalo lo emang ga ada kerjaan, spt gw skrg gitu deeee. fyi, gw byk kerjaan sbnarnya, tp liburan seminggu lagi getooo! hahaha. back to the topic. filmnya bole dibilang keren, in the sense, settingannya di sebuah kota yg penuh dengan teknologi science fiction. yups, something about time travel, magic drugs, etc etc. tokoh utamanya  adalah seorg sheriff yg harus menyelesaikan masalah yg muncul gara2 sci-fi stuff yg “out of control”. well, isinya cukup well-mixed. ada keseriusan, ada nonsense (u know lah, stuff about sci-fi), n plus sedikit komedi. u get it all in one packet. tp yaaaa, ga cukup membuat gw ketagihan utk nonton like 24, or tense like prison break. but this one just never bores me up, though it’s not addicting either.

sooooo, apa nih yg kalian lakukan seminggu ini?? karena org2 kerja juga masih libur, boleh lah ya (dan wajar lah ya) gw ngeles kalo gw blm menyelesaikan setitikpun kerjaan gw. hahahah. gile men, gw sibuk minggu ini! hahaha. sepupu gw dateng, mau ga mau gw harus ikut donk, iya ga? sapa yg mau melepaskan kesempatan dbawa jalan2 n makan2?? be honest bro, gw mahasiswa geto. nice status bwt ngeles soal aktivitas favorit: makan dan tidur. well, keuangan blm juga stabil bulan ini. sapa yg sangka gw bakal kehilangan barang, LAGI! duh, rasanya gw lagi di bagian bawah roda takdir keberuntungan.

ohh ya, td gw beli martabak crispy, yg direkomendasikan si T. gile, harganya cukup mahal utk porsi yg didapat. tapi emang ga bisa dipungkiri, rasanya bener2 membuat lo naik ke langit ke sembilan, if there’s any.

ahh, ga ada yg pengen gw tulis. kalo lagi ga melo rasanya susah nulis yg jijay2. udah tengah malam nih. besok ada janji sama si M mau fitness. gila, akhirnya sabuga buka! gw dah pengen banget renang. sialnya senin adalah for woman only. rasanya liburan ini bikin nambah berat badan (don’t look at my belly pleeeease. spt kata A, gw spt terkena busung lapar), otot2nya makin kendor, n pastinya otaknya ga kerja sama sekali. dosaaaaa nambah terus ni kalo sendirian di kosan. u know what i mean? no?? kalo lo cowo n lo ga ngerti, well, u need to see a consultant. hahahaha. udah ah, makin lama makin byk rahasia kehidupan pribadi gw yg terbongkar! ciao!

have u ever felt so lonely, so bad that made u wanna scream…   or wondering whether u’re created to be alone in this world….

well, tentunya bukan lagi ngomongin tmn. friends are something i have a lot. i know u’re there for me, guys!! haha. i’m talking about someone to whom we can share our dark and light, our high and low, our please and sadness, our dreams and fright, our ups and downs, our body our soul. yahh, i’m talking about someone to love. dan tentunya seseorg yg memberikan cinta yg sama kpd kita.

hm, is it a symptom of desperate jomblo? hahha. be aware, my friend, to feel alone doesn’t mean desperate. desperate means you’ll hook anything that’s available. whereas i’m willing to wait for someone nice to come. but sometimes it’s just killing u, inside, and it’s wakening some longing in your deep soul for someone to be there.

well, banyak org bilang, kalo dah jodoh ga bakal lari ke mana2. i hope that’s true. kdg2 dalam hati terpikir, “duh pengen deh punya pacar spt si dia. gwee banget”. tapi gw sendiri ga pernah berusaha mengejar. yeaaah, maybe i’m too afraid to face another relationship. or maybe i’m just a coward myself. whichever, i don’t know what i’m waiting for. mensch, please let me get over the past, and move on to the future!!

pernah dgr lirik “i am ready to love, i’ve been chasing the answer…” hehe, pathetic banget yak. arrrrrrgh, gw pernah dgr cerita ttg dua org, yg tampaknya begitu cocok satu sama lain. dua2nya juga saling suka. namun ntah karna perkara apa yg ga jelas, keduanya mendadak saling menjauh, tidak ada kabar2an. sebgitu besarnyakah rasa ego kita pada our pride, that we can’t even afford to deal with it?? well, i can’t say. pride is something too hard for human to defeat.

well, never mind. stlh nulis blog biasanya suasana hati membaik. hahaha. kalo ga ada blog biasanya juga suka nulis2 curhatan di word. coba deh, biasany abis curhatin perasaan lo, lo bisa jadi lega. jauuh. tapi kalo lo pny tmn utk mendengarkan (n tentunya menjaga rahasia lo), it’ll be just so much better. fyuuuh. i’m ready to endure the long wait for my future love! hahahha. ngawur. cao dulu.

Tschuess!

Let’s see… it’s not about the new serial movie called NUMBERS. but talking bout that movie, i think it exaggerates a little too much about the whole mathematic things, which made me less exciting to watch it. but fortunately the lack of satisfaction from that particular serial is readily coped by another thrilling serial that came surprisingly into my file collection from surprising source. supernatural. have u watched it? well, one particular episode made me have difficulties to sleep one night (i’m not easily scared! hahah. defending myself… i did sleep! i just woke up intermittently and involuntarily during the night). another episode made me feel a little frightened when i had to step into the cold water of the pool to swim. hahah. the only overcoming power that made me diminish all the fear was the fact that i hadn’t remembered dumping any corpses i’d killed into the water. so there would be no dead sickening spirit came after me from beneath, at least!

gosh, i remember the swimming pool back at my hometown. when there was no one, and i was swimming right in the middle of the deep pool, and the light was dimmed, i couldn’t help myself to think there were hands somewhere inside the water that were readily taking u in when u didn’t swim by quickly. wahhh, and then, because of those thoughts, you just suddenly lost control of your breathing rythm, and it caused u to choke some water in, and all the muscle coordination went awry. gyaaaaaaaaa, the fact that the pool was laid just beside a cemetery only added my adrenaline. scheiss! i only wished no one was there to see me drown. hahahahha.

no, it’s not about that supernatural. but one particular movie, which still leaves traces of fright inside my mind, has been haunting me from the high school till now (sometimes, when i get into the bathroom). well, sometimes, inside the toilet, i lose any memory of it completely, concentrating myself totally on getting rid of my waste into the stool (hahahah), or imagining things for unsolved problems, or concentrating on rubbing my whole body (and my big buddy) as clean and as perfect as possible, or whatever. but very few times, i keep recalling a particular scene from the movie.
in that scene, a woman was going into a bathroom, furnished with a shower and a bathtub. she turned the knob of the bathtub on to fill the tub. the air was thick (hahah, this was hyperbolic. how had i been able to feel the thickness anyway) and the light was kinda shady. when the tub was almost fully filled, she went by and felt the accumulated water to sense the temp. and the director just got it right with all the sound effect and  the scene: the water was suddenly red with blood, but it appeared clear and normal to the woman’s eye. and in the spiritual world which she couldn’t perceive, a damn-horrifying-and-sickening-looking woman was lying in the bathtub, her blood filling all over the bathtub. gosh! that was horrifying. i didn’t remember the next scene. but that particular appearance of the bloody woman did imprint some bad memory into my mind. imagine anytime you take a bath, the water u pour upon you can be blood, because a damned spirit is bathing in the tub, watching you annointing yourself with the sickened-bloody-water which you look as normal and clear as water can be. and then she might hanging up in the shady ceiling, watching and waiting for the time to come, the time to grab your soul. hahahaha. do u have fear for the supernatural, brother? i have never (fortunately) experienced that kind of things, but without reason, i just sometimes can’t hold the fear back. for me, bathroom is the most forbidding place for such fear to come. it is haunted, maaaaaan. it is haunted!! hahahah.

hm, at first, i hadn’t intended to write about these craps. but i think i just couldn’t hold back an idea that popped into my mind. especially when i really had nothing to do. hahah. do you have fear, my friend?? have u ever had any supernatural encounter? it’d better not come to me!